Writing my first novel SONG OF A FIREBIRD has been an amazing journey of self-discovery. Tapping into my creativity and telling this story has given me a sense of purpose and satisfaction. I smile remembering the excitement of laying awake in the wee hours of the night with my brain sizzling with ideas. I recall writing, and rewriting, and rewriting again and again until the characters felt like old friends. Seeing the little world I created in my head take shape on the page was so gratifying… but sharing it? A little scary.
So, I hit the pause button. I let the story rest for a month or two. Then I began another round of edits. Rinse. Repeat. Waiting to let the story settle has been so helpful in this process so I could see it with fresh eyes and a new perspective. When I finally shared it with some trusted readers, I felt ready. That doesn’t mean it wasn’t scary… but I guess fear is part of the process. That’s why I hit the pause button once more when it was time to query.
The summer came, and with four kiddos and a dog to look after, I put the novel on the back burner. In between swim practice, vacation and playdates, I polished my pitch and query letter. Many Google searches later, I am humbled by all I have to learn about the world of writing and publishing. And pretty intimidated. I’m glad I can hit pause to rest and reflect on the path ahead and strategize, but I don’t want it to become the default any time I feel paralyzed with fear of the unknown.
So, I guess, now is the time to roll up my sleeves and get to work. I have to chase this dream if I want it to come true… and I really do. As the kids go back to school, I go back to work building my online presence and walking the path from aspiring writer to published author. Wish me luck!
Marie McKoy 